storms of sensory function
Today, i see an example of the xtreme physical world is the sensory space time flux in autism. today mom said i had to put in some effort... so today i must make time and space stand still so i can have some peace. . i decided to go online and watch the space time PBS videos and youtube became my sole pursuit. it was grounding and gave direction and orientation. in nonspeaking autism, instead of friends we imagine and create the worlds in our minds. these worlds are beyond spacetime. they are tunnels into a quantum realm. in this realm dialogues exist between light, sound, and the material. many internal dialogues keep repeating themselves as the attractor states of sensory stimuli combine to form dynamic and evolving living concepts. dormant patterns begin to reawaken as i begin to script. the particular words and visuals are brought to life and i succumb to their call. i can lose myself in pattern recognition. every sensory event is memorized to define it later.
why does this happen? every spring, atmospheric changes cause me to unsettle. the fluctuating temperature and pressures cause me to work overtime to gain body equilibrium. in despair i turn to my quantum realm. its a safe harbor in the storm.
my neurodiverse friends, please take care of your internal somatosensory clock and teach others to be patient of the space time flux in autism this time of year. have the heart to understand sensory dysfunction and its effect on our mind and body.
hi my name is sameer